Me Without You

“Like a thundercloud without a chance of rain
Like a stretch of sandy beach without the waves
It’s like i’m spinning my wheels
Down a lonely interstate…
Me without you”


Today is exactly one week shy of 16 months since my sweet baby became an angel. Even though I am still trying to find my new normal and I have picked myself up Maggie is always on my mind. One of my support groups did a series of pictures for “the new normal” of life after grief and I will be sharing a few of them along the way. Tonight this song by Love and Theft, Me without you, speaks to me in volumes. Music no longer takes me into romantic thoughts. That is part of my new normal. Me without my angel, my new normal is learning to create new dreams as all of them were so connected to me being a mom and I have to accept the reality that just might not happen.

It’s a picture perfect sky without a view
It’s an empty seat at a table for two
It’s having all the time in the world
And nothing to do…
Me without you

I’ve been loving you so long
I’m a leaf lost in the wind
I want to be so strong
But i don’t know how to begin
So i keep holding on
Cause i don’t know what else to do
I try to be, but i’m not me
Without you

It’s a beautiful song to be sung
But nowhere to sing
It’s this beat up old guitar missing a string
It’s me calling in the middle of the night
And it just rings
Me without you

I’ve been loving you so long
I’m a leaf lost in the wind
I want to be so strong
But i don’t know how to begin
So i keep holding on
Cause i don’t know what else to do
I try to be, but i’m not me
Without you

Baby, tonight i’m gonna light your favorite candles
And open a bottle of my favorite spanish wine
Gonna listen to the song that we made love to the first time
It’s all i can do
It’s all i can do…

I’ve been loving you so long
I’m a leaf lost in the wind
I want to be so strong
But i don’t know how to begin
So i keep holding on
Cause i don’t know what else to do
I try to be, but i’m not me
Without you

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