Holiday Blues


The holiday’s are hard for so many reasons. I miss my family traditions that seem to have died with my grandparents and therefore I become even more homesick and nostalgic for the days when my heart was whole. Then there is the difficulty of being a parent of stillbirth. I always think about what I should be doing and what milestones Maggie SHOULD be at, but is not. This is where things usually go terribly wrong. At least with my grandparents there are happy memories, but with Maggie there is only pain. No one really knows how to handle me during these times and honestly sometimes I don’t know either but the list pictured above is a good start and worth sharing.