I am, A Grieving Mother

I wrote this some time ago, but I am sharing it today in honor of October 15th pregnancy, stillbirth and infant loss awareness day.


I am sick at heart
but I go on.
I am happy and I am sad.
I am angry and I am melancholy.
I am a grieving mother.

I am bright and I am dark.
There are times when I cannot stop the screams,
and there are other times when I don’t utter a sound.
I am the girl left behind.
I am a grieving mother.

I feel too much and I cannot understand how he feels nothing.
I am too afraid to ask.
Too afraid to rock the boat.
Instead I hide.
I am a grieving mother.