My tag line “all people want is for someone to listen” has never held more truth for me than it does now. Everyone is listening, but I haven’t been doing much talking. I completely shut down in response to my addiction recovery. There isn’t anything anyone could have done to save me. I have to be willing to save myself, and that is just what is happening. I am in the process of picking myself up, but I have to make myself take advantage of my support system. It’s hard for me to do that, but I am trying. What everyone has to understand is that the old Samantha is gone and I have to learn how to live in my own skin again which also means you all have to learn to love a new me.